I just saw a documentary on the life of Eric Clapton ( in twelve bars ? )

Sunday, February 11th, 2018 —> -1˚C / +30˚F & still snowing (?) in the dark @ 3:13 am in Atlantic Canada —> On Pamm’s Birfday 🙂 <—

 

At my lowest point, I was singing ‘Bell Bottom Blues’ to myself and got the words all wrong –

Instead of “I don’t wanna fade away-” I was singing “I don’t want to lose control-”

and at the time I had no idea why those words popped into my head –

and later realized that since my father was a mean drunk –

I was afraid that any socially acceptable means for chemical relaxation –

might turn me into an alcoholic or otherwise addicted ogre –

who would drive everybody I cared about into seeking safety away from me.

& of course, you would be an Aries – dangit –

My Aries moon reads like, “Way deep down in the depths of your soul, you know for sure that brute force rules the universe.”

And that’s a complete bloody lie. And you know it –

Redeemed by a “7” life path -? You need to base your life on something to believe in.

Rock N Roll -? Drugs -?

But watching that documentary tonight –

I felt like you need to know. Of course he will know you in Heaven.

And things over on that side are a lot more forgiving than they are here.

Over there, no low minded men are using religion to try to control you – or me, or any and all of us –

 

But you might want to know how I know that.

The last time I saw my cousin, Gary, was at another cousin’s wedding.

Then Gary died shoveling some old lady’s snow – it was something he did without asking to be paid for it –

Because he was like that.

Gary’s older brother died of a brain tumor at the age of 6. Gary might have been 4 years old at the time.

And you know that kind of thing leaves a hole in your soul forever.

 

Nobody ever told Gary that I connect with the spirits of those who’d passed over – connect mostly in dreams –

They tell me things I couldn’t learn trough normal channels. They tell me in riddles I don’t always understand –

until one of life’s little surprises makes their meaning perfectly clear.

That’s something I don’t tell everybody. That’s something not everybody wants to hear –

It messes with the way they believe things are, or maybe should be –

But the first thing Gary did when he became acclimated to life on the other side –

He came to me in a dream. He set it in the venue where I’d last seen him, where the reception for our then newly married cousin took place –

He came down a stairway and made sure he caught my attention. There was somebody with him, and he was really happy to tell me,

“Hey, look who I found!” – his brother had grown up on the other side.

And there they were, together. Forty something years couldn’t keep them apart.

 

And I had a thing for John Lennon. Of course never met him in real life.

And of course I was shocked when the MKULTRA victim shot him that night –

So on the anniversary of that ignoble event I was working alone at night, cleaning an office, I –

heard a radio announcer mention the date and the anniversary of John crossing over –

I turned my thoughts beyond the clouds and asked, “How are you?”

And I was stunned that I got an answer –

“I wish you bluddy psychics would leave me the fook alone!”

And he knew I was shocked.

He was shocked that I was shocked – “Sorry-” I said, “I never thought you’d get this message from me -”

 

And a couple weeks later, same place, same job –

I thought I felt John’s presence again, I smiled, and asked, “How are you doing?”

And very deliberately he answered, “Better Than One Might Expect” –

And I got the feeling that – that was part of a message he wanted Yoko to get.

And I wondered if that message was coded, “B to me -” and the rest would come from somewhere else.

 

I later learned that a very good friend I talk to maybe once a year –

has a daughter ( I knew she has a daughter ) but I didn’t know –

Her daughter works for Yoko and Sean.

 

And hey, ‘Ric’, the Aries love of my life absolutely loves your song to Conor –

 

— you’ve earned you wings and halo, dude –

 

— Jassper LeBoof —