Politickal Schnarr & Evil

Tuesday, October 2nd, 2018 —> +42˚F / +6˚C & sunny in Ithaca, New York at 3:05 pm.

— Let me start with something a friend blurted out once:

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— “There are only two kinds of people in this world. — Angels in Training and Angels in Trouble. … And many of us have one foot in each camp. And quite a few of us are Centipedes…..”

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Statue of Liberty Hiding her tears.

“The effects of testosterone poisoning on US Politiks as seen by the rest of the world?”

— And Ideas and philosophies that stuck with me: …

— “A society is judged by the way it treats its most vulnerable and least empowered citizens.”

— “The military model: ‘You get out there and you tell them anything you have to – to get them to do what I ordered you to tell them to do – or you can find yourself facing a courts martial!’ — isn’t just a symptom – it may be the basis of the “Information is power” / “Need to know” culture where the truth has no value as far as those who want to wield power are concerned. Disinformation rules – and only a select few at the top of the authoritarian food chain have a clue as to what “The Truth, The Whole Truth and Nothing but the Truth” actually is.”

— “The social pyramid is a complete illusion. If and when those who have been convinced that they are at the bottom of the delusional power structure refuse to believe that those who claim to be above them are any better than they are, or have any right to tell them what to do, and walk away – The whole thing will collapse in on itself.”

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— I intend to Expound on this subject extensively in the next couple days, but right now, I’m at work and something important just came up, so, stay tuned for the rest of my thoughts on this subject.

 

— djo —

The Cat Says, “Make The Snow Go Away-“

Saturday, March 17, 2018  —> -10˚C / +13˚F in the dark and clear atmosphere @ 11:11 pm in Atlantic Canada, on Cousin Ricky { Patrick } Conroy’s birthday 🙂 —

Moe

– Moe’s got his nose in the planter where he just finished off most of the cat grass and catnip –

— That’s three and four feet deep waves/dunes of snow outside Moe’s insulated window – Once a day he goes to the door and stares at one or both of us until we open the door, then he stares out at the snow and finally turns, looking heart-broken, with a desperate, “Make it go away-” look and something close to disillusionment behind his sadness, looks like he’s wondering what he needs humans for if we can’t magically make the snow go away and his wonderful green world appear  where it should be – Ya Know?

Moe looking at us.

– One of Moe’s “Make it go away-” looks –

— Moe was called “a cat and a half” by a friend near Ottawa – But that is a lot of fur around a lot of cat there –

Plants on our porch.

– Happy Plants – Basking in sunshine –

— The plants on our porch – patiently wait for warm weather when they can go outside and happily bask in the same sunshine Moe wants around him – but they don’t whine and complain the way he does.

Eslyn in the cat tails at the waterfall.

– Meanwhile – over the border in our game world –

— We had several of us corroborate on how to make a waterfall without a five or six thousand dollar graphics package. ‘Eslyn’ here loves the results.

Eslyn asa Ranger with the falls behind her.

– Eslyn posing with the ‘Exploded Rock Falls’ she helped clean up this evening. –

— About once a day even I wonder if getting this game world up in working order may be too lofty a goal. But then – A fresh face like ‘Eslyn’s ( Who was with us in like, um, 2012 but recently returned – ) shows up and goes, “Oh wow – This is great, I think I can fix your little problem there —” ) and gets it done.

~~~~~ Jim

“What you see is Perception, Not the Truth” – Marcus Aurelius.

— Wednesday, January 23rd, 2019 – -12˚C / +10˚F & cloudy in Atlantic Canada @ 11:11 am – & updated @ 4:35 pm Atlantic time = with -8˚C / +17˚F & ‘Heavy Snow’ falling here – according to my weather app. –

Red in the Morning.

– “Red in the Morning” – sunrise in Marysville, January 23rd, 2019 – 7:47 am – Atlantic Time –

— An opening line from the original “Kung-Fu” teevee series that stuck with me all this time: “To learn all there is to know about the good in this world, one lifetime is not enough – To learn all there is to know about evil – one hour is too much.”

—> The Hindu model of the cycles of life in the material world – and they kept knowledge from rumoured golden ages when we on earth may have had technologies that dwarf what we have today – says that at about 500 AD we hit rock bottom in a 26,000 year cycle that effects our ability to think and reason and live – at rock bottom most ‘intelligent’ life on earth could only understand the purely physical. The ‘vibrations’ in that region of the material universe are so dense they make it nearly impossible to use our minds to anything like our full potential.

— In about 1500 AD we progressed to the next level where most sentient life could understand the concept of electricity – electricity could travel through metal like water could travel through a sponge. { So maybe a soul could live inside a physical body? }

— We may be approaching the next higher level – where most of us will understand that magnetism can control electricity and effect the physical aspects of life. { I’m not sure whether human consciousness goes up and/or down through 3 or 4 levels of understanding and ability to perceive and think – The Hindu model says we have seven physical ‘chakras’ or energy centers in our bodies. The lowest one is the sexual center – which actually operates on energy that is higher and finer than some of the higher centers. There is a reason that human beings feel ‘religious experiences’ during and just after sexual experiences – especially when higher emotion, like love, empathy, or appreciation, admiration, and stuff like that is involved. – But human consciousness can almost certainly evolve to the point where we can use our higher intellectual functions to control magnetism and thereby electro-magnetic currents and forces, etc. – The physical center is next up the ladder, then the lower intellectual center – {{ego}} Then the emotional center – {{ Emotions happen faster and at a finer level than ‘academic thought’ – You can’t control your emotions with your ego }} –  Then there’s the higher intellectual center – where creativity and inspiration come through – above that we become aware of ‘super-consciousness’ where ‘saints’ and psychopaths can tune in on ‘spooky interactions at a distance’ and perceive stuff going on in parallel dimensions and either believe they’re losing their minds or cross their fingers and hope they’re experiencing evolution on a personal level. – above that individuals discover ‘psychic’/’spiritual’ powers – like telekinesis and astral travel and all that fantastic stuff that pseudo science calls delusion, because if they haven’t experienced something – it doesn’t exist in their understanding and when their egos are empowered – they have to strike out and convince themselves that anybody who ‘believes’ in that kind of ‘nonsense’ must be delusional at best and psychotic at worst – and probably dangerous. – Dangerous to anybody with a closed mind and shaky grasp of what reality just might be all about. } { When you are fully identified with your sexual center, guess what you want to do? – When you are fully identified with your physical center you probably want to remain at rest forever – When you click in to your lower intellectual center you like to learn and quantify and label and count – When you click in to your emotional center – you want to hug a lot and nurture a lot & you may want to get even with real and/or imaginary slights by people you care about – or anyone who threatens those you care about. — When you click in to your higher intellectual center – you want to know who we are, where we came from, is there a God? Is there life after physical death – do our parents and teachers have any idea what is actually happening here? – And you start to get answers and hunger and thirst for more — When you click into your ‘higher emotional center’ you feel overwhelming love and compassion for all beings and want to communicate with Buddhas and Saints and Sages and Spiritual Masters – and you start by hoping that it is true that all true religious teachers have discovered that the ultimate Truth behind all Religions is constant and all the truly ‘enlightened’ ones agree completely on what Heaven and Earth are all about and the perceived differences between religious teachings come about because that ‘One Truth’ has to be described in terms that people in all the various cultures and levels of understanding can grasp and believe in. —> And there may actually be more and higher levels – but if you haven’t been ‘infected’ with the experience of slightly higher levels – and never had the kind of experience that really opens your eyes and heart and mind – you probably won’t believe there is anything out there or up there – so ‘They’ tell us ‘we can’t get there from here’ and if you try to stay on top of the ocean – you sink – and if you try to sink – you float { Thank You Allan Watts } – and if you spend time and energy trying to see into the Divine before you’re ready, all you’re going to get is frustration – so for now – just believe that unlimited consciousness and immortality in the depths of your consciousness is possible { but a few attitudes and ‘states of mind’ might need to change along the way – and you’ll have to wait and see what all that is like when it happens to you. }

— The last big jump up for those of us in the material universe might come in a couple more thousand years when most of us understand that consciousness can control magnetism, which can control electricity, which can effect physical/material objects. – This would be the fabled ‘golden age’ When the majority of sentient beings on this planet begin to understand what life is all about, why we’re here and what ‘God’ might be all about.

{ This explanation of mine is probably an extremely basic, almost simplistic explanation of what Hindu philosophers and ‘saints’ discovered many thousand years ago, back before Göbekli Tepe days, possibly before Gilgamesh and his gang were here. }

— And the ‘Don’t take anything I say as the Ultimate Truth of all existence – Test it – and see if you can punch holes in it – run it up the flagpole and see if anybody drags it down and burns it – and then try to figure out what their agenda might be.’ – cautionary warning label here could be that no giant steps forward by our whole diverse population can be guaranteed when you add the monkey wrench of free will into that equation. – But without that monkey wrench we just might wither and die spiritually.

— I should quit here, but let me add that the Hindu philosophers have preserved the idea or ‘knowledge’ that the material universe is the lowest and smallest of several dimensional universes, with the ‘Astral’ or emotional universe being the next finest and much larger universe, where many believe we all go when we dream, — and then the ‘Causal’ or higher intellectual universe is that much finer and larger than the ‘Astral’ universe – and those who have progressed to that level can create anything they want to by exercising the power of their minds —> and there is something beyond the Causal universe that we’re not supposed to be able to comprehend until we graduate from the gross, mind-numbing electro-magnetic disturances that rule the material universe. } <— Could this be a decent hypothesis to test and think about and try to prove or disprove? Rumours from the Golden ages hint that science without an open mind is like trying to walk or run with one leg paralyzed.

melted snow on windshield @ 12:21 pm

– 12:21 pm Atlantic Time – melted snow sliding down windshield. –

Snow not melting.

– 12:25 pm – Snow no longer melting on my windshield. –

12:35 - snowy windshield

– 12:35 pm – Ten minutes after the snow refused to melt on contact, we get this on our windshield –

— WordPress just told me I had to upgrade to the next level of their software and then welcomed me to their ‘latest and greatest’ editing experience – Well —> Let me reinstall the classic editor, because their ‘BLOCKS’ Suck!

— { Classic Editor has been reinstalled and is working – Yay – Thank you }

 

~~~~~ Namasté, God Bless – Blessed Be – Shalom – Salaam – Aloha – and a whole lot of other expressions I haven’t learned yet —

~~~~~ Jim

 

– uh, Boring Yoga Jernil? –

Thursday, August 2nd, 2018 —> +22˚C / +70˚F – dark & clear at 11:48 pm – after we got a little bit of rain this afternoon

Muhdaguss -

Muhdaguss – the Ymmp – posing without his tail showing in a ‘flipped screen shot –

— This evening’s ‘Yoga Jernil’ entry in an obsolete data base that will not connect to the internet } – nyaaa nyaaa –

Experimental copy & paste

‘Yoga Jernil’ for Thursday evening, August 2nd, 2018 –

— The above is as much for me to see if this might be readable as a screenshot edited for size using my iMac’s ‘preview’ app.

— Shrug …,

~~~~~ Jim

Sunday, April 8th, 2018 –

Sunday, April 8th, 2018 —>  +3˚C / +37˚F & grey and cloudy @2:19 pm in Atlantic Canada – on Vicki Joyce’s Birthday & Rob Burnett’s birfday, & on this date in 1961 Mom told me that Nancy was on her way 🙂 –

Sunday Morning in Atlantic Canada

– Looking Toward Canada Street – at about 11:00 am this morning –

— Not feeling 100% – pretty good one minute, dull  & blah the next? Should I blame the weather?

— Yesterday I downloaded a newer Bento version and clicked ‘Try it’-  Because the danged thing will not allow me to buy it outright or enter my 35 digit key from the previous version I bought before we moved to New Brunswick — and thereby upgrade to that version without it committing software suicide in 30 days. This new version was a whole lot more user friendly than the previous version, but I’m afraid to upgrade my database because it might render everything useless when the month long trial period is over. ‘Filemaker Pro’ wants me to buy their latest and ‘greatest’ ‘offering’ —>  For a ‘mere’ $1,200.00 per year. —> Apple has died and been replaced by Bill Gates? —>  Schnarr!

— Ya think I’m kidding when I talk about Economic Warfare being waged against everybody?

— Grumble grumble grumble –

~~~~~ Jim

Life And Death When Nobody Notices –

Life And Death When Nobody’s Looking –

There were feral cats on my two hundred
And fifty mile route through rural upper New York State

– One Night a week, on Fridays
The Weekend Papers came out at midnight
and we, the victims of economic warfare,
had until 8 am to deliver them.

One night, in the middle
of nowhere
I saw a cat
run out from a roadside hiding spot
right under the back wheels of a car
whose driver never saw what happened

– I pulled over and stopped
got out and knelt down beside the cat
Her back was broken
her insides were crushed
from the stomach back

I tried to comfort her, what?
Talk to her – Tell her she was on her way
To the Kitten Happy Hunting Grounds?

– all she wanted to do was crawl away and die in peace
And me, with my human sentiments and sensibilities
hoped I wasn’t scaring her to death while I knelt there and cried

– She tried her damnedest to crawl – drag herself to cover
But she couldn’t move at all

I stayed with her until the light went out in her eyes
And twenty years later I can’t forget that moment

– Can’t stop hoping I didn’t make her final moments in this life unbearable-

I hope she understands.

—– Jim Wellington

Ice Chunks –

Friday, March 16th, 2018  —> -2˚C / +29˚F with very light snow falling @ 6:39 pm in Atlantic Canada —

Ice Chunk.

– Let’s see- This monster is like two and a half to three feet long and a foot high – Solid Ice – and weighs about 80 to 100 pounds. –

— Ugh! Good thing Cathi was already scheduled to work from home today. If she tried to drive over the above chunk of ice, which was blocking our driveway where she usually turns to stay in her proper lane on her way out of here. It would either have stopped her dead in her tracks or sliced through any vital cables and/or gas lines, brake lines — thinks like that.

— While I was digging this thing out or the end of the driveway I was thinking it might be poetic justice to launch that sonofagun at the windshield of anybody driving a snowplow on this street. —> Luckily, I’m a writer and I can imagine that as a plot angle in a story and not believe I owed the ‘birty dastard’ who pushed that thing into our driveway the scare of his life.

— & by the way, in this photo the ice chunk is posing atop a three and a half foot high mound of packed cleared snow at the edge of our driveway.

Snow chunks.

– I thought yesterday’s snow chunks were bad. –

— If somebody hit you in the head with one of the above ‘boulders’ of tightly packed snow, it might make you angry. If you head was ‘thick’ enough the chunk of snow would break.

— Today’s monster Ice Chunk could probably kill a healthy adult male human being.

Paw prints in the driveway beside my size 13 boot print.

– On the lighter side, Cathi thinks these paw prints belong to a very small cat. –

— It felt like a waste of space to center that above this.

— Now, it might just be a bit of ugly formatting on my part.

— But, yeah, Cathi thinks those are a very small cat’s paw prints. She worries about a cat that size being outside in weather like we’ve been having lately. – Worries more that it might be homeless and shivering in the dark somewhere.

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— But, on then other PAW –

TaleRocker in a cave.

– TaleRocker’s latest look, since Doug gave him a pair of glasses. –

— We gave TaleRocker a new ‘Gravatar’

 

~~~~~ Jim

Working Through Catastrophic Deletions & Learning to Really Appreciate Colour

Saturday, February 24th, 2018 —> +2˚C / +35˚F with less than an inch of new snow on the ground, and the vehicles … @ 8:13 am A couple hours North of the Bay of Fundy —

Xhyrean's new look -

– First the Good News? – This is me in Aerendel –

— Yup We had a Catastrophic “oops” – One click wiped out like ten days of work.

— Working inside a 3D Compute Game – World Building – has it’s ups and downs. Now the bad news? —> While trying to resize an ‘asset’ ( big old rock ) the pyramid moved, I clicked and we lost – jeeze – I don’t know – The bottom 4th of one area —? Ten days’ work messed up in half a split second?

— But – Before I admitted anything I tried to undo that click, nope  – didn’t work, so I started fixing the area the hard way – & three hours later I had the perimeter back where we started – But we had some intense landscape that was missing – including the connections with other areas – We’d spent hours fussing with ‘water’ to fake a waterfall – and tip up one ‘oceanic’ bit of water – at a weird gravity defying angle – and messing with orientation adjustment tools to try to match up the edges of three bits of water, two parts of a river and the waterfall – so it didn’t look as horrible as we feared it might. And we were proud of that. But that ‘One-Click’ disaster had buried all that hard work beneath a now suddenly flat featureless landscape. — Luckily – the water, the rocks we used to cover the seem at the top of the waterfall – all that stuff was still there, hiding.

Ocean inlet about to be deleted.

– The “Ocean Inlet” Above ( We weren’t entirely sure whether it was going to be and ocean or a big lake /inland sea – ) – Was actually beyond the limits of the area it was connected to – And it was slowing us down –

— The above was just before the disaster – We deleted two cosmetic additions to one major area because they were really slowing us down, making it frustrating to try to navigate around – No matter how pretty or aesthetically satisfying they looked, they had to go.

TaleRocker looking at thesky.

– Jim’s Builder character – Checking out the ‘altered’ blue fog –

— “Before”? – Please notice how flat the land is to ‘TaleRocker’s right –

Have ou seen the stars tonight?

– In the process of driving ourselves nuts to fix the landscape – Jim went off and checked out an old area that never lost the stars, came back and tried something –

— Now look – Pulling down the ‘Landscape’ again – left us with a dilemma – and the opportunity to make some changes that might be more visually interesting – We’re not finished with that ugly weird hill on the other side of the river, but the river itself looks better than it did ( Um – in my opinion anyway – )

— & Another unexpected bonus to working our tails off in marathon sessions – I got up exhausted and headed for the kitchen to get myself some ‘nourishment’ and everything I looked looked absolutely amazing – Suddenly everything around me was vibrant with colours I probably saw, but didn’t  pay much attention to – paint on the walls – even the sand on the dog’s stairway in and out from the elements – even the sand in the driveway – Everything was beautiful – I remember a Yogi giving me advice way back in my misspent youth – He said that anything artistic we do helps us in our quest for spiritual ‘enlightenment’. Like the quote from “Zen Flesh, Zen Bones” – “Before enlightenment – chopping wood and carrying water — After enlightenment – Chopping Wood! and Carrying Water!”

— Did I tell you that when Jim came back from North Shamrock Island he went in and deleted our ‘Skybox’ and bingo – the stars came out – They’re not all that visible in the screenshot above, but they’re there –

Ellyn the half-elf

– “Ellyn the half-elf” –

— “Ellyn” ) I don’t know how well putting her to the left of this text will work, but there she is, cropped – with the exposure adjusted so she actually shows up in this ‘photo’ –

Ellyn.

– I think this is Ellyn posing in a full width screenshot that had to be adjusted for size to keep it under 2 MB so this blog will accept it here.

— This was Ellyn before we messed up the landscape behind her.

Fidaria

– Fidaria – The female cat person. –

— Fidaria. Jim met a young woman of ‘Yugoslavian’ pedigree whose name was Fidaria. He thought that name was both beautiful and exotic. So when one of us wanted a Female cat Person as her main builder Character – Before she knew I had a cat person avatar for me here –  And she wondered what to name her – Jim went down the alphabet and got as far as ‘F’ and or friend lit up – “Yeah – that’s a whole lot better than “Kitty” –

Xhyrean at sundown.

– “Me” in the dark at Sundown – just before the stars came out and dazzled us all –

— I should probably end this here – I was the last one standing a couple hours ago and things got slowed down to an agonizing scrawl as the loads of landscaping changes we made were stacking up in a buffer somewhere – And I’m pretty sure I can safely log out and re-enter and run around to see how the changes we made look in the ‘daylight’ here 🙂

— Hasta luego –

—– Xyrean ( the bloodshot and starry eyed ) –

I just saw a documentary on the life of Eric Clapton ( in twelve bars ? )

Sunday, February 11th, 2018 —> -1˚C / +30˚F & still snowing (?) in the dark @ 3:13 am in Atlantic Canada —> On Pamm’s Birfday 🙂 <—

 

At my lowest point, I was singing ‘Bell Bottom Blues’ to myself and got the words all wrong –

Instead of “I don’t wanna fade away-” I was singing “I don’t want to lose control-”

and at the time I had no idea why those words popped into my head –

and later realized that since my father was a mean drunk –

I was afraid that any socially acceptable means for chemical relaxation –

might turn me into an alcoholic or otherwise addicted ogre –

who would drive everybody I cared about into seeking safety away from me.

& of course, you would be an Aries – dangit –

My Aries moon reads like, “Way deep down in the depths of your soul, you know for sure that brute force rules the universe.”

And that’s a complete bloody lie. And you know it –

Redeemed by a “7” life path -? You need to base your life on something to believe in.

Rock N Roll -? Drugs -?

But watching that documentary tonight –

I felt like you need to know. Of course he will know you in Heaven.

And things over on that side are a lot more forgiving than they are here.

Over there, no low minded men are using religion to try to control you – or me, or any and all of us –

 

But you might want to know how I know that.

The last time I saw my cousin, Gary, was at another cousin’s wedding.

Then Gary died shoveling some old lady’s snow – it was something he did without asking to be paid for it –

Because he was like that.

Gary’s older brother died of a brain tumor at the age of 6. Gary might have been 4 years old at the time.

And you know that kind of thing leaves a hole in your soul forever.

 

Nobody ever told Gary that I connect with the spirits of those who’d passed over – connect mostly in dreams –

They tell me things I couldn’t learn trough normal channels. They tell me in riddles I don’t always understand –

until one of life’s little surprises makes their meaning perfectly clear.

That’s something I don’t tell everybody. That’s something not everybody wants to hear –

It messes with the way they believe things are, or maybe should be –

But the first thing Gary did when he became acclimated to life on the other side –

He came to me in a dream. He set it in the venue where I’d last seen him, where the reception for our then newly married cousin took place –

He came down a stairway and made sure he caught my attention. There was somebody with him, and he was really happy to tell me,

“Hey, look who I found!” – his brother had grown up on the other side.

And there they were, together. Forty something years couldn’t keep them apart.

 

And I had a thing for John Lennon. Of course never met him in real life.

And of course I was shocked when the MKULTRA victim shot him that night –

So on the anniversary of that ignoble event I was working alone at night, cleaning an office, I –

heard a radio announcer mention the date and the anniversary of John crossing over –

I turned my thoughts beyond the clouds and asked, “How are you?”

And I was stunned that I got an answer –

“I wish you bluddy psychics would leave me the fook alone!”

And he knew I was shocked.

He was shocked that I was shocked – “Sorry-” I said, “I never thought you’d get this message from me -”

 

And a couple weeks later, same place, same job –

I thought I felt John’s presence again, I smiled, and asked, “How are you doing?”

And very deliberately he answered, “Better Than One Might Expect” –

And I got the feeling that – that was part of a message he wanted Yoko to get.

And I wondered if that message was coded, “B to me -” and the rest would come from somewhere else.

 

I later learned that a very good friend I talk to maybe once a year –

has a daughter ( I knew she has a daughter ) but I didn’t know –

Her daughter works for Yoko and Sean.

 

And hey, ‘Ric’, the Aries love of my life absolutely loves your song to Conor –

 

— you’ve earned you wings and halo, dude –

 

— Jassper LeBoof —

 

Snowy Day – My Turn to Wax Philosophical ?

Saturday, February 10th, 2018 — -2˚C / +28˚F & still snowing lightly out there in Atlantic Canada @ 5:28 pm — On Galdrian’s Birthday —

Nikki / Evelyn

– This is the screenshot that Jim used to represent ‘Evelyn’ the child spirit in his Latest NaNoWriMo Novel. –

— As I walked to my window to see if it was still snowing, or had it turned to rain, ‘ice pellets’, or freezing rain like they said it might, I remembered the opening line from one episode of the original series “Kung Fu” —

— “To learn all there is about the good in this world, one life time is not enough. To learn about all the evil that is in this world, one hour is too much.”  { That might be a word or two off, but that’s how I remember it.  }

— & I don’t have any cool photos of today’s storm to pop in here, I’ll just leave it with the cool screenshot from our game world – which is still in progress.

— “Boof!” —