Sunday, February 11th, 2018 —> -1˚C / +30˚F & still snowing (?) in the dark @ 3:13 am in Atlantic Canada —> On Pamm’s Birfday 🙂 <—
At my lowest point, I was singing ‘Bell Bottom Blues’ to myself and got the words all wrong –
Instead of “I don’t wanna fade away-” I was singing “I don’t want to lose control-”
and at the time I had no idea why those words popped into my head –
and later realized that since my father was a mean drunk –
I was afraid that any socially acceptable means for chemical relaxation –
might turn me into an alcoholic or otherwise addicted ogre –
who would drive everybody I cared about into seeking safety away from me.
& of course, you would be an Aries – dangit –
My Aries moon reads like, “Way deep down in the depths of your soul, you know for sure that brute force rules the universe.”
And that’s a complete bloody lie. And you know it –
Redeemed by a “7” life path -? You need to base your life on something to believe in.
Rock N Roll -? Drugs -?
But watching that documentary tonight –
I felt like you need to know. Of course he will know you in Heaven.
And things over on that side are a lot more forgiving than they are here.
Over there, no low minded men are using religion to try to control you – or me, or any and all of us –
But you might want to know how I know that.
The last time I saw my cousin, Gary, was at another cousin’s wedding.
Then Gary died shoveling some old lady’s snow – it was something he did without asking to be paid for it –
Because he was like that.
Gary’s older brother died of a brain tumor at the age of 6. Gary might have been 4 years old at the time.
And you know that kind of thing leaves a hole in your soul forever.
Nobody ever told Gary that I connect with the spirits of those who’d passed over – connect mostly in dreams –
They tell me things I couldn’t learn trough normal channels. They tell me in riddles I don’t always understand –
until one of life’s little surprises makes their meaning perfectly clear.
That’s something I don’t tell everybody. That’s something not everybody wants to hear –
It messes with the way they believe things are, or maybe should be –
But the first thing Gary did when he became acclimated to life on the other side –
He came to me in a dream. He set it in the venue where I’d last seen him, where the reception for our then newly married cousin took place –
He came down a stairway and made sure he caught my attention. There was somebody with him, and he was really happy to tell me,
“Hey, look who I found!” – his brother had grown up on the other side.
And there they were, together. Forty something years couldn’t keep them apart.
And I had a thing for John Lennon. Of course never met him in real life.
And of course I was shocked when the MKULTRA victim shot him that night –
So on the anniversary of that ignoble event I was working alone at night, cleaning an office, I –
heard a radio announcer mention the date and the anniversary of John crossing over –
I turned my thoughts beyond the clouds and asked, “How are you?”
And I was stunned that I got an answer –
“I wish you bluddy psychics would leave me the fook alone!”
And he knew I was shocked.
He was shocked that I was shocked – “Sorry-” I said, “I never thought you’d get this message from me -”
And a couple weeks later, same place, same job –
I thought I felt John’s presence again, I smiled, and asked, “How are you doing?”
And very deliberately he answered, “Better Than One Might Expect” –
And I got the feeling that – that was part of a message he wanted Yoko to get.
And I wondered if that message was coded, “B to me -” and the rest would come from somewhere else.
I later learned that a very good friend I talk to maybe once a year –
has a daughter ( I knew she has a daughter ) but I didn’t know –
Her daughter works for Yoko and Sean.
And hey, ‘Ric’, the Aries love of my life absolutely loves your song to Conor –
— you’ve earned you wings and halo, dude –
— Jassper LeBoof —